This new job of mine is challenging. Invigorating. Interesting. Exciting. And very intense, in terms of no longer being able to focus on any of the extracurricular activities that I had been focusing on before taking on this new role.
Specifically, the volunteering I was doing for SDA (Society for Design Administration), and especially for the Seattle chapter. I knew I needed to do something.
So I slept on it. I talked things through with my husband. I had long, internal conversations with myself in which I played out various scenarios—should I do that; could I do that; what if I didn’t do that?
And it ultimately came down to this: I could not give SDA the best of me (even a half-hearted attempt of me) while doing my new, challenging day job. My paying job.
I needed to have a chat with the chapter’s President-elect.
I told her that it wasn’t fair to the chapter to have the President not be available during business hours. I told her about my new job and how challenging it was.
I told her of the very hard decision that I came to, which was that I needed to step down as chapter president, for the good of the chapter (and my sanity).
There, I said it. (And without any ugly crying, although I remember I did tear up just a bit at one time).
One of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make: Go back on the promise I made when I was installed as chapter president.
On the bright side for me: The current chapter board members are awesome! Dedicated. Committed to their positions. Willing to take on additional duties (because I stepped down from the president’s position). I know things are going to be just fine with the chapter this year.
I still feel like a s**t for stepping down, instead of trying to ride things out. I did the right thing. Right?